long day at school. i took awhile to fall asleep last night and had to wake up earlier today to go to school to do a project. i think i must have wasted 4 hours of my time trying to figure out how to use the video editing machine that is old but expensive. the only thing we managed to do was to black a tape and decide what bits of the recording we wanted (ie where to start and stop).

so drained and frustrated now, and nursing a tension headache too. had one deadline extended and thankfully so, though i would like to get it done and over with as quickly as possible so i can get started on studying for the exams.

bagged a lovely pleated clutch off Etsy today. am pleased with my purchase and i must admit that of late i have developed a penchant for pleats be it on clothes or purses. :)

Labels: retail therapy, school

10:41 PM



life got in the way.

he had to leave the country today due to some family emergency, and i didn't get to meet him as we planned. wanted to rush to the airport after i got off work (i'm doing something part-time for 2 weeks) but i couldn't get him so i didn't know which terminal to go to or what time he would be boarding. and in my hurry to get out of the office i clicked on arrivals instead of departures! *sigh*

went home and cried so bad...i don't think i've cried so much in 2 years but i was rather devastated at not getting ot see him before he left (his original flight was tomorrow night). eventually got to speak to him but i was wracked with worry and i was missing him so much. i was so tired on top of that having had to wake up at the ungodly hour of 7am for work...should not have sacrificed sleep for work. hmmm. so for the entire afternoon i tried to sleep but got restless so i went online in search of temporary stress relief, repeated this cycle twice till 6ish, gave up and went to shower.

after that he finally called and it felt so good to hear his voice and know that he's landed safely, everything's alright and he will be back soon. he left in a hurry and didn't get to pack much stuff. we had a nice long chat...felt reassured and comforted but he sounded down. i know he feels bad for making me wait for him but i don't blame him for anything and i don't mind waiting for him - i'm committed to this relationship, i'm happy with him and i'll be by his side no matter what.

have got an assignment that is filling up much of my post-dinner time...in a way it's good as it takes my mind off things. i'm trying to plough on even though i just wanna have a break since i've just finished a spate of assignments as of last week and am so tempted by the latest ep of gossip girl. so much readings to do, so much material to consolidate for the paper (i always think more is better) and so little time to make it work.

Labels: love, musings, school

11:32 PM



it seems that this blog is getting stale and negative but it's not as bad as i make it out to be.

most of the assignments are done for this semester, all that's left are a 4000 word essay and and editing the 1 minute video, both of which are mammoth tasks but i am glad that i don't have to spread out my attention over a few things at once.

over the past few weeks i've stopped lounging on the bed/sofa watching TV after dinner and i haven't been "studiously" watching the shows i've downloaded. i've even gotten lazy uploading photos to facebook! *lol*

i've been spending absurd amounts of time in front of the computer though i suspect much of this time is spent looking at stuff other than work, like, checking out Etsy/Anthropologie/Forever21/Shopbop (and many other shopping sites on a lower frequency) in addition to the usual blogs i read, and in place of the tabloids I'd read at Gossip (in Seattle) on Thursday afternoons over a cup of pudding milk tea (Us Weekly, Star) there's now Just Jared and ONTD.

sleeptime's gone from 1 to 2am and i get annoyed by myself for waking up at 10ish, sometimes 11, because half the morning's gone and there's so much i could have done in that span of time.

i also drink 2 cups of tea everyday, have 2 eggs for breakfast, indulge in online retail therapy (4 bags and a clutch on Etsy in 2 months! and an F21 top), treat myself to Gossip Girl/Prison Break/The Hills whenever i can squeeze it in without feeling guilty, stocked up on M&S biscuits for late night bites, and am currently reading Project Smitten which is a lovely new local fashion magazine despite not going shopping ever since i got back.

i have developed an aversion to orchard road. crowds are overwhelming and frustrating. and shopping here is overpriced.

in the month since tony's been back we've managed to find some nice quiet spots far from the maddening crowds. he's going off soon but i have exams and mugging books is always a good activity to do in place of feeling lonely and lovelorn.

Labels: musings, school

12:07 PM



shit happens

i need to breathe.

stop saying fuck so much.

stop flopping on the bed like a beached whale.

but that's what you get when, in one day,

the cumulation of negative things just overwhelms you.



10:20 PM



a rainy night puts me in a cuddly mood

am half glad that deadline for assignment has been extended for the 3rd time now

even though i'd rather get it over and done with

reading the Travel Section of the NYT

and i'm missing the Pacific Northwest heaps

especially after seeing pictures of the fall foliage

absolutely gorgeous and breathtaking.



11:51 PM



there are moments, like last night at halia, where we are deep in conversation, and lost in our own world. those moments, to me, are perfect.

terribly hot sunday, just got up from a long nap. got to do assignment with a deadline that has been gratefully postponed by a day. because i have 3 different leads and i don't know how to continue.

is there no place in singapore that isn't crowded over the weekend?!!



5:20 PM



i am here because i am running on empty for my next feature assignment. it's due on monday but i feel like it's pointless and i have nothing contructive to say.

today's been incredibly busy for me - basic theory (passed!), visual comm presentation (blech), chopping 500 words from a group project report (crazy) and now this.

at some point i will have to start on it.



11:55 PM



it's hard not to have expectations even when you tell yourself not to

which is why i always end up disappointed.

maybe i am asking for too much,

but right now i am just tired of it all.



7:20 PM



exorbitant!

tony and i were shopping around in holland village before dinner today, and we stopped by antipodean, one of my favourite shops there for its pretty frocks. the store has been carrying alot more accessories and jewellery lately and i was checking them out when i noticed the terribly jacked up prices.

1) there was a simple long multi strand necklace made entirely out of glass beads retailing for $189.90. if the necklace were made out of semi precious stones, i would totally understand but glass beads? it looked classy because it was mostly black and the design is still in style, but it is crazy to spend so much when it is not worth it at all.

2) i bought a pendant off etsy for USD8.00, with shipping it came up to about USD10. i was amazed to see that pendants from that etsy store, with chain added, retailing for SGD40.

3) again, i bought some vintage cameos off etsy, 6 for USD15. the store was carrying vintage cameo necklaces of the same design but in a smaller size. each necklace had a charm in addition to the necklace and was retailing for SGD48!

i am not against making profit but it's just incredible to jack up the prices so much. those were just necklaces with simple designs, i saw others which i thought the prices were justified. even if you factor in the workmanship i don't understand how it can be so expensive.

i love buying charms and cameos online and making them into necklaces for myself, and i love buying accessories too. over time, my knowledge of supplies (and how much they really cost) has increased, so i am now more wary before forking out large sums of money for something which does not have a justifiable price tag. so the important thing here is, know what you are paying for!

Labels: musings

2:16 AM



due to the following factors:

1) "inclement" weather - threatening grey skies, rumbling of thunder, intermittent rain
2) the fact that i'm on a roll now with my assignments,

i will not be going to school today.

Labels: school

1:38 PM



foiled plans, yet again, leave us with little time together

i don't want to seem selfish, but it would be nice if we could spend some quality time together without thinking of the time

it's a bit hard, what with school and church on sunday mornings and other friends he's got to meet

2 weeks, just like that have gone by

and i feel like i am caught in between, wanting to get used to his presence but not allowing myself to

longing for more time, with so many words left unsaid

i love having him around, i don't know what i'll do when he's gone this time

go back to the way things were, i guess

and wait for him to come back again.

Labels: love

6:10 PM



as always, running low on inspiration and creativity whenever crunchtime comes.

so much time to write an essay and yet i sit here bereft of thoughts.

and so i indulge myself in some retail therapy while waiting for my eureka moment.

love etsy & (sometimes) forever21.



12:26 PM



school week's ovah!!

thursday was my hellish day, and to my surprise, everything went well.

and i had a fantastic evening with tony and suz. we had dinner at aerin's and went to loof for drinks.

i managed to see tony again today for a good 2 hours - we went for dessert at 2 different places and that was my lunch!

mmmmmmmm.

everything's good when my nose isn't blocked.

back to reality - i still have alot of work to plow through.



10:39 PM



picking up where i left off

haven't updated in a bit!

it's the busy period in school for me.

i have a presentation on thursday, a finance quiz after, an assignment due on friday.

i have a paper due next thursday, a presentation on friday, an assignment deadline the next monday.

SIGH.

been feeling quite crummy every time my sinus goes overboard and clogs up my cranium, and sometimes it doesn't stop for the entire day. it's torture.

like yesterday, for example. and i was hanging out with tony too - i just felt so tired. so i popped a pill and right now i'm good again.

my hair's messed up too of late...it's got the texture of straw! eew. i finally used the tresemme shampoo and conditioner that tony brought back for me...mmm it smells lovely and even lovelier still it makes my hair sooo smooth. loves it. i wish they sold it here!

now that he's back i guess i've been blogging less...we've been meeting up whenever we can, once every few days. i still miss him though but i guess i can't see him too much if not i'll get sick of him, though i highly doubt it!

there's just so much i want to talk to him about, so many places i want to take him to. so far we went to dempsey for dinner and drinks, chip bee gardens and holland v for dinner and dessert, chatterbox for his pre birthday dinner, and buffet at the m hotel last night.

the days are swirling by and soon he will go again. sighhhh. i wish that things would slow down some.

Labels: love, school

6:42 PM