first paper over, it was okay. a bit shaky, considering how i haven't taken a proper exam in a year. i had no exams in the states, coincidentally all the classes i took only required me to turn in final papers. i didn't choose them as such:p

i don't feel like studying anymore tonight but i have a paper on monday. hence the dawdling online.

a beautiful pair of earrings came in the mail today. i am going through my freshwater pearl phase right now...but i also love the sterling silver beadcaps that top each pearl. so exquisite. eyeing another pretty pair...sigh.

Labels: frivolity, retail therapy, school

10:25 PM



numbers

trying to be remotely productive. progress is slow, and hitting 4000 words is far reaching for now.

had 2 lattes this morning which made me really wired, spent an hour-ish travelling from work to school, stayed for all of 5 minutes because the project was finished by the time i reached, and went home.

attempted to sleep, but failed terribly because the kids in the school next door were learning how to sing deepavali songs, and construction was going on, but somehow i must have fallen asleep somehow and woke up just before six.

and now i am seriously contemplating if i should get that gorgeous dress from anthropologie together with that top i have been thinking of for about a month now but that would set me back by $240.

plus there is the stila palette on sephora along with all the other goodies that will come with the promo code i received in my email yesterday.

Labels: musings, school

11:03 PM



long day at school. i took awhile to fall asleep last night and had to wake up earlier today to go to school to do a project. i think i must have wasted 4 hours of my time trying to figure out how to use the video editing machine that is old but expensive. the only thing we managed to do was to black a tape and decide what bits of the recording we wanted (ie where to start and stop).

so drained and frustrated now, and nursing a tension headache too. had one deadline extended and thankfully so, though i would like to get it done and over with as quickly as possible so i can get started on studying for the exams.

bagged a lovely pleated clutch off Etsy today. am pleased with my purchase and i must admit that of late i have developed a penchant for pleats be it on clothes or purses. :)

Labels: retail therapy, school

10:41 PM



life got in the way.

he had to leave the country today due to some family emergency, and i didn't get to meet him as we planned. wanted to rush to the airport after i got off work (i'm doing something part-time for 2 weeks) but i couldn't get him so i didn't know which terminal to go to or what time he would be boarding. and in my hurry to get out of the office i clicked on arrivals instead of departures! *sigh*

went home and cried so bad...i don't think i've cried so much in 2 years but i was rather devastated at not getting ot see him before he left (his original flight was tomorrow night). eventually got to speak to him but i was wracked with worry and i was missing him so much. i was so tired on top of that having had to wake up at the ungodly hour of 7am for work...should not have sacrificed sleep for work. hmmm. so for the entire afternoon i tried to sleep but got restless so i went online in search of temporary stress relief, repeated this cycle twice till 6ish, gave up and went to shower.

after that he finally called and it felt so good to hear his voice and know that he's landed safely, everything's alright and he will be back soon. he left in a hurry and didn't get to pack much stuff. we had a nice long chat...felt reassured and comforted but he sounded down. i know he feels bad for making me wait for him but i don't blame him for anything and i don't mind waiting for him - i'm committed to this relationship, i'm happy with him and i'll be by his side no matter what.

have got an assignment that is filling up much of my post-dinner time...in a way it's good as it takes my mind off things. i'm trying to plough on even though i just wanna have a break since i've just finished a spate of assignments as of last week and am so tempted by the latest ep of gossip girl. so much readings to do, so much material to consolidate for the paper (i always think more is better) and so little time to make it work.

Labels: love, musings, school

11:32 PM



it seems that this blog is getting stale and negative but it's not as bad as i make it out to be.

most of the assignments are done for this semester, all that's left are a 4000 word essay and and editing the 1 minute video, both of which are mammoth tasks but i am glad that i don't have to spread out my attention over a few things at once.

over the past few weeks i've stopped lounging on the bed/sofa watching TV after dinner and i haven't been "studiously" watching the shows i've downloaded. i've even gotten lazy uploading photos to facebook! *lol*

i've been spending absurd amounts of time in front of the computer though i suspect much of this time is spent looking at stuff other than work, like, checking out Etsy/Anthropologie/Forever21/Shopbop (and many other shopping sites on a lower frequency) in addition to the usual blogs i read, and in place of the tabloids I'd read at Gossip (in Seattle) on Thursday afternoons over a cup of pudding milk tea (Us Weekly, Star) there's now Just Jared and ONTD.

sleeptime's gone from 1 to 2am and i get annoyed by myself for waking up at 10ish, sometimes 11, because half the morning's gone and there's so much i could have done in that span of time.

i also drink 2 cups of tea everyday, have 2 eggs for breakfast, indulge in online retail therapy (4 bags and a clutch on Etsy in 2 months! and an F21 top), treat myself to Gossip Girl/Prison Break/The Hills whenever i can squeeze it in without feeling guilty, stocked up on M&S biscuits for late night bites, and am currently reading Project Smitten which is a lovely new local fashion magazine despite not going shopping ever since i got back.

i have developed an aversion to orchard road. crowds are overwhelming and frustrating. and shopping here is overpriced.

in the month since tony's been back we've managed to find some nice quiet spots far from the maddening crowds. he's going off soon but i have exams and mugging books is always a good activity to do in place of feeling lonely and lovelorn.

Labels: musings, school

12:07 PM



due to the following factors:

1) "inclement" weather - threatening grey skies, rumbling of thunder, intermittent rain
2) the fact that i'm on a roll now with my assignments,

i will not be going to school today.

Labels: school

1:38 PM



picking up where i left off

haven't updated in a bit!

it's the busy period in school for me.

i have a presentation on thursday, a finance quiz after, an assignment due on friday.

i have a paper due next thursday, a presentation on friday, an assignment deadline the next monday.

SIGH.

been feeling quite crummy every time my sinus goes overboard and clogs up my cranium, and sometimes it doesn't stop for the entire day. it's torture.

like yesterday, for example. and i was hanging out with tony too - i just felt so tired. so i popped a pill and right now i'm good again.

my hair's messed up too of late...it's got the texture of straw! eew. i finally used the tresemme shampoo and conditioner that tony brought back for me...mmm it smells lovely and even lovelier still it makes my hair sooo smooth. loves it. i wish they sold it here!

now that he's back i guess i've been blogging less...we've been meeting up whenever we can, once every few days. i still miss him though but i guess i can't see him too much if not i'll get sick of him, though i highly doubt it!

there's just so much i want to talk to him about, so many places i want to take him to. so far we went to dempsey for dinner and drinks, chip bee gardens and holland v for dinner and dessert, chatterbox for his pre birthday dinner, and buffet at the m hotel last night.

the days are swirling by and soon he will go again. sighhhh. i wish that things would slow down some.

Labels: love, school

6:42 PM



attempting to complete this week's finance tutorial was distressing as i didn't go for lecture and even though it's all down in the notes, i can't quite make sense of it. i'll probably have to view the lecture online sometime later. ever since school started i've been finding it hard to motivate myself to get down to doing my readings and giving serious thoughts to ideas for projects and assignments. i'm quite content coming home from school each day, making myself a cuppa tea, watching tv or using my laptop for hours on end...doing whatever necessary readings need to be done before a class. it's kinda hard to go out with friends seeing as how everyone's busy at the start of school and everyone's schedule is different. and most of us are giving tuition or working in our free time.

life couldn't get anymore mundane, could it? i'm still trying to get used to all this blahness.

Labels: musings, school

10:27 PM



i give myself too much stress, it's a bad habit of mine. now that the school week is over, it wasn't half that bad as i imagined it out to be. another bad habit - i gripe way too much. but i'm on the mend and keeping it to myself because of aforementioned reason (it comes out sounding awful) and really, there are more important things to worry about so i should learn to stay zen when shit happens.

i find myself falling back into a routine again, which strangely is comforting. it consists of going to school, coming home, relaxing/doing homework, going to bed, and the next day it repeats itself. but then again this is singapore not seattle. oh well.

the new and final (i think) season of the hills started on monday. yes it is a reality show and i am unabashedly hooked onto it. for me it's addictive and i love how it portrays LA and seemingly sucks you into that bubble - the glamorous hollywood lifestyle, the sidewalk cafes, exclusive nightclubs, swaying palm trees, chillax californian vibe, dressed down but expensive designer threads, gyms and yoga centers, juice bars, pink berry, coffee bean and urth caffe, the pricey pretty pieces of real estate in beverly hills...i love the city. or rather, pockets of it. santa monica, venice, west LA. in spite of the fact that sometimes what you see is just a facade.

Labels: globetrotting, musings, school, usa, wanderlust

10:28 PM



murphy's law

hit me in full force today. i'm quite the emotional minefield right now. today i've been mostly frustrated annoyed exhausted flustered worried and helpless. but then whenever i'm sounding out the current bane of my existence to someone else it comes out as totally trivial and not worth the gravity that i invest it with. it's fleeting but right now it's preoccupying my mind and it just serves as another reminder why school here has become such a dread.

Labels: musings, school

10:56 PM



mutter.

i'm not particularly keen on school right now. first week lectures can be so redundant - i'd rather read everything in the handouts they give with all the course information. and i wish everyone would stop asking me about school.

all i can think of at the mo' would be indulging myself in frivolous pursuits.

cleaned up my room a li'l bit more tonight. progress has been extremely slow because after awhile all that dust got to me, affected the sensitive olfactory system and my sinus blew up yet again, and the pounding headaches came back. one more reason why i miss america - such shit never happened. that, and the fact that i'm still not adjusted to the stifling heat, that i can't find decent bubble tea, or a good cuppa joe, or japanese cream puffs, and those perfect tiffany blue skies with poufy puffy clouds.

also, i'm discovering the wonders of webcam, which i've never tried before.

Labels: musings, school

11:34 PM



emo.

here it is again, that dreaded time when school reopens. tonight's particularly difficult for me because i feel that pang of loneliness knowing that he's not beside me, knowing that he is in a different school in a different continent, and knowing that i would rather be in that school, not because of him because i truly loved my 6 months of studies there.

it doesn't help that i'm listening to sarang haeyo.

:(

Labels: love, reminiscence, school

11:36 PM